Small Is Large - Life Is Not Something To Understand, It Is Something Just To Live

Creator never would have thought, while giving brain to human with all his good intentions, this creature would end up in such misery and mess …and their greedy thoughts would eventually transform them in to a monster that would spread agony to rest of the universe.

Principle of our life should have been very simple: “live and let live”. We were only meant to acquire skills for survival, right thought for a simple human life should have been just “Eat, Drink and Merry”. However, we human has forgotten this basic principles of life generations back, and been on race with own race.

I myself is not any different case, but most of us realizes this foolishness at least halfway of the race….few before the race begins—we might call them saints, and few keeps running past even the finishing point…it is up to you to name them.

Once in the race means you are as if in an airborne flight, even after realizing the fact that our flight is useless and heading to unknown destination, we are compelled to be afloat with the hopes that we could find an appropriate airstrip to land before we are out of fuel…and the fact is that such airstrip only exists in an utopian land.

Among those who realizes the fact of their flight/plight, few dejected ones ejects halfway, few survive longer by favorable wind and at the cost of low throttle and adrenaline. Those who does not realize, pushes the throttle hard and run-out of fuel first, however, end of all those began the race are similar, only the time and magnitude of impact differs… crash land and die in to the filth of greed accumulated beneath by ourselves and past generations.

These are known fact to many, however, we don’t realize, even if we realize we don’t practice. We still weigh material holdings and status over peace. We don’t realize having wealth, having university degrees, having social positions gives us only relative status. The real status is realizing how small we are, the true wisdom is realizing that we are smaller than an atom in this universe….and we know nothing, and all the prides that we carry are false…pride about our material achievements, pride about material achievements of our near and dears….all are useless as a flight to an unknown destination without landing gear.

I found when it comes to religion and religious scripts, we human are smart enough to misinterpret context of rules set forth to follow, we skew rules to fit for our purpose. This has created uncountable number of different schools within a same religion. The basic purpose of religious teaching were to distract people those who might vary away from the basic principles of life:- ”live and let live, spread love and joy”, however, part of society have been intoxicated by the same teachings and doing the opposite to the real context of such noble thoughts.

This deterioration is neither limited to any one religion, nor any one region or demography. Today this is a universal problem, and at least we should enlighten our children what is real context of life, religion and god. They should be taught to see “God and Religion” as separate entity. They should be taught to understand Religion and Religious practices as a programme routine to be followed to help us in relinquishing from all our false prides, to become “Large by being Small” thereby to attain the ultimate happiness for which the creator send us to this universe….

My mind had always been perplexed with the question, Does God exists? I had been agnostic, however I made up my mind with my own reasoning, Yes God finally exists for me…., for me god exists in human minds those who live principle and truthful life. It is an ever-invisible idea, or a perception only for those who does not live a truthful or principle life, without realizing this, for self-gratification, they create more and more lavish adobes for the god with the false hope that god would bestow his blessings on them, and they do not realize the fact that god has no material existence. Those who seek god in material form need to realize god can only exist in our inner being, he does not exist in temple, church or masjid, and only can be invoked and felt with a companionate heart.

Coming back to agony of human mind, it would exist until we flush out our self-planted seeds of greed…… greed for luxury, greed for comfort, greed for power, greed for gratification of instincts…..and all these greed culminates to envy, and further culminates to self-betrayal. We today betray our consciousness to be able to live someone else life, and we don’t know what we actually want in life…

I will take my example here, I had a financial target to reach and then to retire from gulf at the age of 40. I have certainly reached my then set target, but could not able to make up mind to retire. The excuse I give myself is I have worked so hard all these years, my current status and salary levels are because of all those efforts, how can I leave everything on a fine day and go back now and my children are also small…and new target have been set for age 45 … it is only a hope today that I will not change my mind after 2 years. However, I am yet again perplexed why do I need such money as my needs have not changed….again another excuse I could do something good to others……do we really able to do good to other, when we are not in a position to do justice to ourselves

If someone ask me today are you happy? I might say no! Yes, I am happy for my achievements, but not happy for being away from home, not happy for doing a job of not my choice, not happy for being able to live like rest of the Keralite do, not happy for missing our sweet monsoon….etc etc, so my list of unhappiness surpasses my list of happiness, how could my happiness balance sheet tally. Similar might be the case with many of us.

Everyone will have a bunch of regrets in life, I am also not different, and I too have couple. One of the biggest regret of my life is not able to travel, my dream to travel like a nomad, just with one backpack….alone or with some likeminded freaks, I am talking about travelling across India…rural India, and to write a travelogue my own perspective about India. A portion of my earnings were always been meant for this, however, working on projects with tight schedules I could never so far make it…hope soon this dream also will come true…slowly and steadily I am working on to tally my happiness balance sheet.

Finally, we all blame our destiny for our success and failures, do we have really a predefined destiny? Or our destiny is product of our own actions or reactions? It is up to you to judge as I have already explained my version of what is simple philosophy of our lives.

We all profess, but only few practice. I am glad I could spot one such gentleman this time when we gathered during our silver jubilee function…left lucrative gulf job went back to home to take care of parents.

Here comes to context of being “small is large”. If we all learn to live small life by limiting our needs to what is really required to exist in this world till our death…then our life is really the largest, fulfilled, like our friend did. Hoping we all will learn to live a merge life, a simple happy life full of compassion and love for others, and with no pride.

Dream a life like a milkweed (appooppan thaadi)….just afloat and flutter in the wind…. east –west, north-south, up-down, east -west…neither stick to anywhere nor anyone could hold you forever, no fear of crash landing ever……….SMALL IS LARGE

I did not tell about my second regret, probably it is being partly fulfilled with these notes, an opportunity to reveal my thoughts, and hope your feedback would give me inspiration to scribble in future on specific subjects. I will save rest to share it with you all in person when we meet next time